Waiting On God...

Waiting....

It has been some time since I have really had to ride public transportation here around the city, but there is a lesson in holiness I have learned from it - in some ways still learning.

As Americans... As millennials.... As people who live in an urban environment, the virtue of patience is one that definitely does not come easy.  We are used to social media, fast food, internet speed, and much more which make our lives so convenient that we have lost a sense of waiting.... At least I know I have.

By definition a virtue is a "behavior showing high moral standards" or if we look at it in traditional Christian angelology, they are "the seventh highest order of the ninefold celestial hierarchy."  Interesting how virtue is something for man to seek to acquire, and yet is still the name of the highest of God's angels.  How ironic is it that in our modern society, it is something that we have lost - virtues; morals; and patience probably being at the top of that list that is lost.

A part of my natural character is to activate - or just take initiative.  I find it weird at times to sit back and do nothing; to relax even - many times it feels like if I'm not being productive if even in some small way, then things seem to fall a part.  And though in many ways this is an admirable quality for most, it is something that I have recently found myself hitting a road block with my relationship with God.  It is something that many non Catholic Christian's would call a "works based Gospel", where in practice we get so caught up in doing things, that we forget to wait and allow  God to act.  Lately, for me I feel like I'm not doing enough and need to be doing more.

However even Jesus shows us not to act or speak of our own accord as he doesn't even do so. "I did not speak on my own, but the Father who sent me commanded me what to say and speak." - John 12:49

I find myself in this awkward part at the end of summer simply waiting... For the new school year. For new missions in ministry. For new ideas and inspirations...  For new opportunities to provide for my family.

I find myself frustrated, wondering what it is that I can do more, when in actuality it is simply for me to wait... And allow God to act. Pray that we may be patient... And as as Psalm 46 says may we learn to live these words “Be still and know that I am God!"  AMEN

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