WHAT/WHO IS THE SYMBOL?
BECOMING THE SYMBOL
A reflection by Brandon Feel-X Morel
"One day, when I was about 10 years old and me and my Father were coming back from Baseball practice my father turned to me in the car and said 'Brandon. If there is something you believe in; if there is something you love or care about; you take whatever that is and fight for it to the death. I don't care if you have to fight through me; I don't care if you have to fight through your mother; but if you truly have it deep in your heart you fight until they kill you!'. . .
Years later when my parents split, one thing I admired about my mother is that she never bad-mouthed my father no matter what had happened between them. Then in almost the same exact way as my father had turned, my mom turns to speak to me with this great importance while driving in the car and with tears in her eyes says 'You know Brandon, me and your father are just to completely different people. He has his good qualities, and I have my good qualities.... Your father has taught me a lot; and I'm sure I taught him a lot as well. You know?... My only hope for you, is that you take the good qualities from me, and the good qualities from your father and put them together in you.' ...
I haven't said it publicly until now but that was the day that All is Love was born. Somehow, I seemed to be blessed with a greater knowledge that this issue wasn't just something between my parents but it was something that affected the entire world.... I think every child wants their parents to be together. Its just in the nature of our being. But in the same way, this is the issue with the world. I'm not sure there is anyone out there who doesn't want unity. There is a deep desire in all of mankind that wishes that one day all people of all races, from all nations, from all religions, and sexual orientations will be united. As my mom taught me, there is good in us all. And we can all learn from each other. The reason for the separation is one thing... Our pride, or our Ego. This is what destroys families, cities, countries, and ultimately the entire planet.
I had a rough time dealing with my parents split, and in many ways me and my father didn't have the best of relationships; so when I was 17 years old and my High School girlfriend became pregnant I felt like I just had to make it work. It was a relationship I knew I was ready to move on from, but there were a lot of unhealthy things for the both of us in it. But when I found out she was pregnant I did my best to make it work.
On May 15th, 2010 me and my son's mother split and I was broken... I felt I had failed as a father and in many ways as a son being that I felt I didn't live up to the mission of Unity I know I was called to build. Before that I had created many groups, and teams and all throughout High School I had an entrepreneurial leadership spirit that drove me to do everything. It was at this time, I did the only thing I knew how to do to cope.... And that was become a workaholic. I got a job during the day, became more active in the church, all while experiencing some great success' in many people's eyes as a young artist and businessman. However, being in New York City and particularly The Bronx I found myself in many questionable areas and situations. Not to mention to be perfectly honest, I wasn't happy, I was hurt. And in many ways I felt I had lost my purpose. So I used my art to self-examine and deal the way I always had as a kid.
About a year went by, and I found myself in a new relationship and many ways more than one it was a great blessing. It was a pure friendship that opened me up again. It was also at this time that I really was self-examining and making some changes. Being given leadership positions in community and church circles made me feel like I really had to live the message more and not just talk about it. And as they say, when the student is ready the teacher will appear... I met the Idente Missionaries, and experienced a group of people who cared for me in such a genuine way as I had never experienced before. The first day I was invited over for lunch there was a spark, and two weeks later I was placed in a community for Spiritual Direction that helped me develop and further understand this mission of #LOVE...
It was in September of 2011 I would receive a call from the man who really brought me in named Marek Wasilewski. He asked if I would teach Sunday School at a church I did not attend named Santa Maria's. My reaction was 'What? Me?... I am in no way worthy.' He gave me a few days to think about it. I was working at a school at this time, and down the block there was a church that was open all day on Thursdays from 7AM to 7PM if anyone wanted to go in. And so, I went in to sit, reflect, and meditate. I asked the question simply, 'What do you want me to do?'. And then, in my left ear three words were spoken to me... BE THE SYMBOL. Thinking that I was bugging out, I walked out and went to get on the bus. Before I could realize what I was doing, I was on the phone with Marek telling him yes that I would teach.
Just weeks after this I released a project entitled Chaos Control, which held great significance in my life and I had been working on for about a year. It was inspired by my son, through watching Sonic the Hedgehog. At this time, I was falsely accused with a crime and a temporary restraining order was put on me. This completely removed me from the circle I was usually around, and in turn I would wind up being around the Idente's much more. On December 7th, cops came to my house and arrested me due to the fact that the same person who made the accusation then said I had violated the order. Somehow however I was not angry. Somehow, I was given this amazing grace and that experience of unjust persecution united me to the true essence of love like no other experience could. It was this day going through Central bookings I started to understand what it meant to 'Be the Symbol'
From then until now, I have had many experiences and if I listed them all here I would have to write them in a book that would be chapters long. However, much was revealed to me over time. And as my Father had taught... In order to truly prove my love and my devotion Brandon Morel would have to die. Feel-X was a name I adapted after my father, and it was something a young me felt I needed to be for him. With the release of The Dedication in May of 2013, I came to terms with all and who 'Feel-X' was and why he was created. A process I started back during the project Weapon X. In algebraic equations many a time you are solving for 'X'. I became Feel-X because through my art, I was solving for 'X' and in the end I wanted to bring to others that 'X'... This was the meaning of the name. And as I finally found out what 'X' was, I realized that it was #LOVE ... Completely divine, and infinitely giving love. A love that I found in my community.
So to sum it all up, in order to fulfill the mission I set out as Feel-X, I must be 'The Symbol' . . . The Symbol of #LOVE so that the unity starting in our families, then extended to all of mankind could be restored... #allislove"
Years later when my parents split, one thing I admired about my mother is that she never bad-mouthed my father no matter what had happened between them. Then in almost the same exact way as my father had turned, my mom turns to speak to me with this great importance while driving in the car and with tears in her eyes says 'You know Brandon, me and your father are just to completely different people. He has his good qualities, and I have my good qualities.... Your father has taught me a lot; and I'm sure I taught him a lot as well. You know?... My only hope for you, is that you take the good qualities from me, and the good qualities from your father and put them together in you.' ...
I haven't said it publicly until now but that was the day that All is Love was born. Somehow, I seemed to be blessed with a greater knowledge that this issue wasn't just something between my parents but it was something that affected the entire world.... I think every child wants their parents to be together. Its just in the nature of our being. But in the same way, this is the issue with the world. I'm not sure there is anyone out there who doesn't want unity. There is a deep desire in all of mankind that wishes that one day all people of all races, from all nations, from all religions, and sexual orientations will be united. As my mom taught me, there is good in us all. And we can all learn from each other. The reason for the separation is one thing... Our pride, or our Ego. This is what destroys families, cities, countries, and ultimately the entire planet.
I had a rough time dealing with my parents split, and in many ways me and my father didn't have the best of relationships; so when I was 17 years old and my High School girlfriend became pregnant I felt like I just had to make it work. It was a relationship I knew I was ready to move on from, but there were a lot of unhealthy things for the both of us in it. But when I found out she was pregnant I did my best to make it work.
On May 15th, 2010 me and my son's mother split and I was broken... I felt I had failed as a father and in many ways as a son being that I felt I didn't live up to the mission of Unity I know I was called to build. Before that I had created many groups, and teams and all throughout High School I had an entrepreneurial leadership spirit that drove me to do everything. It was at this time, I did the only thing I knew how to do to cope.... And that was become a workaholic. I got a job during the day, became more active in the church, all while experiencing some great success' in many people's eyes as a young artist and businessman. However, being in New York City and particularly The Bronx I found myself in many questionable areas and situations. Not to mention to be perfectly honest, I wasn't happy, I was hurt. And in many ways I felt I had lost my purpose. So I used my art to self-examine and deal the way I always had as a kid.
About a year went by, and I found myself in a new relationship and many ways more than one it was a great blessing. It was a pure friendship that opened me up again. It was also at this time that I really was self-examining and making some changes. Being given leadership positions in community and church circles made me feel like I really had to live the message more and not just talk about it. And as they say, when the student is ready the teacher will appear... I met the Idente Missionaries, and experienced a group of people who cared for me in such a genuine way as I had never experienced before. The first day I was invited over for lunch there was a spark, and two weeks later I was placed in a community for Spiritual Direction that helped me develop and further understand this mission of #LOVE...
It was in September of 2011 I would receive a call from the man who really brought me in named Marek Wasilewski. He asked if I would teach Sunday School at a church I did not attend named Santa Maria's. My reaction was 'What? Me?... I am in no way worthy.' He gave me a few days to think about it. I was working at a school at this time, and down the block there was a church that was open all day on Thursdays from 7AM to 7PM if anyone wanted to go in. And so, I went in to sit, reflect, and meditate. I asked the question simply, 'What do you want me to do?'. And then, in my left ear three words were spoken to me... BE THE SYMBOL. Thinking that I was bugging out, I walked out and went to get on the bus. Before I could realize what I was doing, I was on the phone with Marek telling him yes that I would teach.
Just weeks after this I released a project entitled Chaos Control, which held great significance in my life and I had been working on for about a year. It was inspired by my son, through watching Sonic the Hedgehog. At this time, I was falsely accused with a crime and a temporary restraining order was put on me. This completely removed me from the circle I was usually around, and in turn I would wind up being around the Idente's much more. On December 7th, cops came to my house and arrested me due to the fact that the same person who made the accusation then said I had violated the order. Somehow however I was not angry. Somehow, I was given this amazing grace and that experience of unjust persecution united me to the true essence of love like no other experience could. It was this day going through Central bookings I started to understand what it meant to 'Be the Symbol'
From then until now, I have had many experiences and if I listed them all here I would have to write them in a book that would be chapters long. However, much was revealed to me over time. And as my Father had taught... In order to truly prove my love and my devotion Brandon Morel would have to die. Feel-X was a name I adapted after my father, and it was something a young me felt I needed to be for him. With the release of The Dedication in May of 2013, I came to terms with all and who 'Feel-X' was and why he was created. A process I started back during the project Weapon X. In algebraic equations many a time you are solving for 'X'. I became Feel-X because through my art, I was solving for 'X' and in the end I wanted to bring to others that 'X'... This was the meaning of the name. And as I finally found out what 'X' was, I realized that it was #LOVE ... Completely divine, and infinitely giving love. A love that I found in my community.
So to sum it all up, in order to fulfill the mission I set out as Feel-X, I must be 'The Symbol' . . . The Symbol of #LOVE so that the unity starting in our families, then extended to all of mankind could be restored... #allislove"
